Take out a piece of paper and something to write with. Then, take a few moments and try to draw a person…with your eyes closed.
How did it go? Now that your eyes are opened again, what does your person look like? Maybe they are a little smushed or lopsided. Maybe you forgot to give them a hand or a neck. Maybe you just left off facial features all together. It’s difficult to make things whole when we are working with our eyes closed.
In the Bible, there is a story about God causing a man named Saul to go physically blind. However, Saul had been spiritually blind for quite some time before this, ignoring the miraculous signs of God right in front of him. But when Saul allows God to help him see, he is completely freed and filled with the Holy Spirit. He is filled with strength, energy, and desire to do good—in ways he never was before. Read Acts 9:17-19 below:
Then Ananias went to the house and entered it. Placing his hands on Saul, he said, “Brother Saul, the Lord—Jesus, who appeared to you on the road as you were coming here—has sent me so that you may see again and be filled with the Holy Spirit.” Immediately, something like scales fell from Saul’s eyes, and he could see again. He got up and was baptized, and after taking some food, he regained his strength.
All too often, we are trying to walk through our faith journey completely blind. We are uncertain about God’s ability to help us, we have doubts. We might be embarrassed to talk about our faith or just don’t feel like we understand it. We might feel distant from God, but we think we can figure it out on our own. Here’s the thing. It is okay to have doubts. It’s okay to be uncertain. But it would be foolish not to seek the help of Jesus as we navigate through our questions. It would be foolish to do everything blind, when we could be doing it with our eyes wide open. Slowly read over the quotes below:
“Doubt is not the opposite of faith; it is one element of it.” Paul Tillich
“I spent a lot of years trying to outrun or outsmart vulnerability by making things certain and definite, black and white, good and bad. My inability to lean into the discomfort of vulnerability limited the fullness of those important experiences that are wrought with uncertainty: Love, belonging, trust, joy, and creativity to name a few.” -Brene Brown
“Be the one who walks with the Lord.” -Shellie Palmer
“If you don’t like the road you’re walking, start paving another one.” -Dolly Parton
I love these quotes. Doubt is a part of part of faith but often stem from the fact that our faith doesn’t look like someone else’s. We start comparing ourselves to others and worrying that we don’t measure up. Instead of leaning into our vulnerability, we run. But we don’t have to run because we are not alone. Our faith is like a road that we pave alongside Jesus. We work with him to make it a road that we want to be on….As you go, pray that God will help you to open your eyes, to turn to him in moments of doubt, and to turn your faith journey into a road that you want to be on for a long time.